IT'S NOT LIKE I WAS DRINKING

This time in bed with my cellphone at night is time I’ve earned working and serving others all day. It’s my me time. I deserve this. It isn't a night cap, but I can feel it going down and I sense the relief, the quieting numb.

Trouble is, it can’t go on. I don’t feel good anymore in the morning. I’m sleeping only 4 or 5 hours a night. I’m cranky in the afternoon. I’m drinking coffee at 3pm. Should I be driving in this state? Hell, yes. It’s not like I was drinking or anything.