A lot of people use it. Some people, lots of women in particular, have a hard time finding it. You have to creep in the darkness to get it, which can be difficult. And in the dark, sometimes, you put your finger on it – there, there it is, right there. But other times, it comes so swiftly, so beautifully and it overtakes you so completely that you’ve no idea of the departure. Until later, the next day, at sunrise, in another time entirely - it is only then that you know - by the heavy light of your limbs and the manner in which your lids lift for first glimpse – it is only then that you even know you’ve taken the stuff. It is only then that you can begin again.